when you completely open up to your boyfriend about all your fears, insecurities and constant worries about commitment and relationships.

and you start crying to the point of an anxiety attack. to the point where your walls come down and you reveal things about your childhood that you’ve never told anybody else.

to the point of that ugly type of crying that claire danes did in romeo+juliet when romeo (leonardo dicaprio) was dead. yeah, it wasnt pretty. 

but it’s made me realize why i love him so much. because he won’t judge me. he’ll sit there and rub my back while i’m crying and just say “it’s okay babe, let it all out. it’s okay to cry.” and made me realize that it would be pretty stupid of me to let such an amazing person like this go. so i am committed to staying with him as long as he wants me around. if that entitles marriage then i am all for it.

i just wanted to share this with all my followers, even the ones that don’t give a crap about my personal life. my tumblr is very important to me and i want this to be on my blog for future references.

i absolutely love chad. and not that cheesy middle school type of love. this love is the kind where i would give up everything to be with him. i would do anything, be anything to make it work. but i know that being with him, i don’t have to give up anything. i don’t have to put any effort or change anything about myself to be perfect, in his eyes i already am perfect. if you read this whole thing, thank you for your time. :)